Life Got a Little Messy

Hey yall! Boy has it been a long couple of weeks. I have had to work a lot. I had a family emergency and we started celebrating my baby turning 1. I have started to feel so consumed by everything that is going on around me and felt like I was putting myself last. I am a strong believer (as I have mentioned before) that self care is not selfish, that being said… I signed up for tennis lessons. 

Let’s rewind and tell you all about everything (that happened in one week). I work from home part time while also being a full time mom. For the most part I am able to make my own schedule, so I prefer to work when the boys are sleeping, whether that be in the morning, durings naps or after bedtime. This allows me to really sit down and focus on the task at hand vs. multitasking or feeling guilty that I am not giving the boys the attention they need/want when awake. While it is not always possible to work when they are sleeping, especially with work meeting times, I try my best to keep those hours of the day divided. So my company has quarterly meetings that require more from me as I assist with behind the scene prep along with attending the meeting.

My parents were coming down for my son's birthday party and my dad fell. Sadly he ended up really hurting himself and they were not able to come for the party. My brother and sister in law were able to go and be with my parents for the weekend but that meant they all missed the birthday party. This just felt like another reminder of how crappy it can be to live far away from family during times of emergency or for times of celebration.

Wrapping everything up with all my mixed emotions about my son turning one. I cannot believe how fast this year has gone by. It has been a year of self discovery, highs, lows, new beginnings, and more. I am having a hard time accepting that our nursing journey is slowly coming to an end. As much as I think I am ok with it, the thought of it also gives me a lot of mixed feelings. He is getting so big so fast and I really just cannot believe it. 

Obviously, a lot has been going on the last couple of weeks. A lot to process and a lot of stress and anxieties to overcome. I really was starting to feel a little lost. I was realizing that I truly do not have anything that I do alone for myself. My kids are always with me or I am with other people's kids when I am coaching. I had been thinking about something to do for myself for the longest time that would help me get out of my comfort zone, so I decided that I was going to sign up for  tennis lessons. This will be one hour that I will get to spend by myself once a week. I am nervous and excited about this new adventure. The class is about 6 weeks long so ill report back and let you know what I think.  

Until next time friends,

XOXO